Let Me Live Now....Enough I Have Died ..Infinite Times..

It used to be ‘sometimes’. But now I always feel as if I am swimming all alone in a pool of solitude which is dark.

I get pulled under by the darkness slowly. I sob and shriek for help.
Everyone can hear me loud and clear but no is there to help me.

When water comes to my eye level, I screech and flap to help myself. I try to struggle every time to stay above the darkness, but I feel as if darkness won't let go of its clutch on me.

No matter how much I kick but gradually I begin to give in to the feeling that lies below the water line. The water starts to fill my lungs. I feel chocked bit by bit.

I understand that this particular path is not leading me towards any happiness but I wonder that why can’t someone just pull me without more ado from darkness’s clench?

I am standing today at the edge between light and dark.

I feel so vulnerable and perturbed that I give in to the things that seize me.

My drive and all of the audacity that I once held in my heart can't save me from the water. Nothing can revive me now.
So I slowly and quietly slip below the world of conscientiousness, undetected by the occupants of that world.

I don't want to fight anymore.
I've given into darkness.

Now, I don’t yell and don’t hope for anyone to come and pull me out.

Let Me Be Alone and Happy!!!!

No Cheers!!!
Chikz :-(

8th Feb,06

17:15